starless (starless) wrote,
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starless

Numb

My mom died on 2/6.

I'm having some trouble getting back to my life. I still feel like I'm walking beside myself, watching powerlessly as I sleep all day and avoid human contact.

I've managed to keep going to work, but I missed 2 weeks of school. I tried to assess the situation today and it looks like I'm very, very behind. Very behind. In all 5 classes.

So much for my ~3.7 GPA, eh?

I just can't get back into the swing of things. I feel lost and purposeless.

I still don't know what to say about my mother. We hadn't spoken for a year, I received a phone call, drove to Vestal, NY, and sat by her bed as she lay unconscious. She never did wake up while I was there. I went back to Philly and 30 minutes after arriving at home I received the phone call that she was gone.
Tags: cancer mom, death, family, mom
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